Falta De Bo...The Lack of You
Have you ever been sure of how you feel about someone?? (thanx stinka)....and it's just like no matter what happens or what people may say your heart still feels the same way. If that certainty is reciprocated then great...but what happens when it's not? How do you deal with that??
It's been 4 years...she was crushing on him hard, then he on her and they finally made it happen...she got scared and broke it off...some other shit happend and she broke his heart...but then she realized her mistakes and wanted him back, damn near needed him back and sometimes it seemed like he wanted her too...she was so certain, she loves him...but he doesn't love her back, not the way she wants him too...so what now? How do we pick our faces back off the ground once our jaws have been cracked? And if you're so certain of your feelings they won't dissappear right away, if ever so what do you do then...cry everyday...die everytime you see them...every time you hear their name!!??? Broken hearts are real...trust me...so does she just die for the falta de bo ??
And even still...do we really need to get up the nerve...if certainty doesn't match certainty why be bold and confess our feelings just to get crushed in the end? Wha't the point of seizing the day, taking the opportunity, kepping it funky, being real, spilling your guts, pouring out your soul???? what's the point of it all? Should we just say screw love? Screw taking chances...screw aknowledging our real feelings, screw being certain about the tings we have NO control over...screw it ALL!!!!???
2 comments:
Your mind, has much control as you have over it can not tell your heart who to like(love)... at times no matter what it seems as if the person can do no harm at all, because you see them in a different light as a result of your feeling that you have towards them... if it seems like its a one way thing that's when you have to really sit down and analyze the whole situation because if your showing that person that much love and attention and its not coming back your way that's when you have to understand what you may see in that person my not be what they see in you. You have to be careful not to show your feelings for them to notice because it will allow them to have the upper hand where they'll know how you feel about them and they'll do every little thing possible to make sure they keep you at arms length so that you don't leave and potentially move on to someone else...
YOU NEVER NEED a guy especially if its only a WANT that they have for you, if they only WANT you, but don't NEED you while you feel that you NEED them, that's just a situation where you just need to let go. Letting go is the hardest part, because your so certain that, that person is the one for you, everything you do, you end up thinking about them, you go out your way at times to do things for them, just to show them that you'll always be there and that you got their backs but its a situation that is doomed because you guys aren't at the same level, where his head is, isn't where yours is at... there's a point in your life when you get tired of chasing everything but its not giving up... its realizing that you don't need certain people the bullshit and the stress they brought to your life and just walk away... but as soon as you leave and let him be; they'll realize what they had and if their lucky you'll still be single but it doesn't mean you'll be willing to take them back because of the broken heart factor... when its been broken its hard to mend back, it takes a lot of the strength to put it back together but that scar will always be left behind and you'll never forget it, it leaves a scar that affects the next potential person that may come around...
Why be bold and tell how you feel because sometimes you gotta take that chance, its better to know that you took that risk and told the person how you feel then to live with the thought that you might have let a really good opportunity go because you were scared of what might happen or what might be said. You never want to live with what if's. Remember you learn from every situation good or bad they make you better/stronger for the next one to come...
Instead of saying screw love, say screw that broken heart, screw being alone, go for what you want and if its not what you get then know that's there is something better up ahead, PATIENCE is a must to get that LOVE you deserve!!!
Know your worth and know what you deserve and that LOVE will come...
C.E.B.M.
Kelly, you are gonna kill me cuz its gonna seem like i am going against all the things i said on thursday night...I'm not. It's just really hard to jump out a window sometimes, especially if you don't know if you are on the first floor or the 30th. I think the heart and mind are connected. Madness in love...reason in madness. I think I may be living in the madness stage right now...
this is too hard. :/
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