Words can't express...

4 years ago I never would've thought I would be the person I am today...6 years ago I never thought I was even going to college let alone a prestigious HBCU. Now I'm here as the end of the road draws near...Although I have an extra 4.5 weeks to wait til it's the official end for me, for most of my friends and loved ones the end comes only in 3 days...3 days that seem to be coming faster than ANYONE ever expected...so many thoughts and emotions surface when I think about this. I know it's been a while since I've blogged but this is SO heavy on my heart I had to do it. A friend broke down to me yesterday and exclaimed how much he appreciated my friendship...college was never what I expected and I thank God for what it turned out to be! I've had so many firsts at Howard University and to think of leaving this place and moving on to a completely new life hurts. I've had a life here for the past 4 years, made friends and lovers, made networking connections, had a routine...and now I have to start over!! But isn't this what I wanted????? Why does it hurt so much? WHy am I crying as I type this? Moving to New York has been my dream...and for the past 3.5 years I've complained of how much I hate DC, but now that I have the opportunity to live a new life in New York...I'm not sure if I'm ready for this!!! My heart is...it's breaking!!! I love these people so much...they've been such an intricate part of my life...and now we must part!! Many say that in a few months college won't even seem like such a major part of my life anymore...but I honestly don't think that's true!!! Too much has happened for me here...too much of me was made here! I will always and forever LOVE the people that were a part of this...word's can not express..